Garie Beach - im 13 and ready to dye already, please help me?

im 13 and ready to dye already, please help me?

throughout my life my parents and brother haven't really cared about me at all. when i was little my brother had ADHD and they were constantly giving him attention helping him with his school work. i grew up not really having parents that were there for me, i often found myself getting in trouble. wether it was scrating the neighbors car with a rock because no one would play with me, or pushing my old neighbor off her bike. i never really learned wrong from right and didnt get told what not to do. instead my parents were constantly punishing me. hitting me when id done something they didnt like, or locking me in the bathroom. i question if they even love me. as i got older the punishment got worse. i sit in a room for what seemed like hours listening to them yelling and screaming at me. my mom would slap me untill me cheeks were raw red, and there was nothing i could do because if i fought back she would only go get my dad and he'd beat me worse. my dad, he picks me up by my neck, chokes me, hits me, yells, locks me in small closets. and i cant do nothing. i have no one to talk to in my life. so i tried to cure my life at home by becoming popular at school, but ive now realized you cant have it all at school, and nothing at home. because my home life is constantly bringing me down and i find myself taking it out on my friends. i cannot lie, my mom does supply clothes for me and i would never call us poor. but she doesnt ever treat me equally to my brother at all. he is 17, and they constantly let him go places and pay full out for him. he has a nice car, might i mention it was 12,000 something dollars. and he goes on tons of vacations. this spring break they sent him out to florida to stay in a beach resort with his friends. he goes to many school gathers anywhere from texas to the rocky mountains. and thats about 1,000 a trip. they just bought him a new 24" mac computer and he already had a perfectly good one year old HP laptop with the whole package. basically hes constantly geting new things. and my mom only buys me clothes every, about 5 months. if i ask her about getting my own computer, she will claim im too young. even though my brother got his first computer at the age of 10. if i ask for a cell phone she tells me im not responsible enough. but shes never even let me proove to her that i am responsible. she doesnt let me go to camps, or school trips. and they sometimes dont bring me on vacations because they only booked for 3? ONLY THREE? she calls me the "accidental child" because i wasnt supposed to happen. i guess she didnt want another kid but she got me. my mom constantly brings me down, and will say things like, "did you do your hair?" "no, i just brushed it." "oh well lets jsut say your not looking to hot today hunnny." "what do you mean mom" "jeez hunny thats enough, i never new id have to tell you you were ugly i thought youd see it in the mirror yourself" im just abuot done with life what do i do?

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Talk to your school counselor about this.
If i were you I would have left by then. You're parents are abusive, you are being beaten. Live with a friend, get the hell out. Talk to a counselor or something. My best advice is leave, finish off high school, get to college with scholarships, or community college, and just get away from them. They dont deserve you. You deserve to be happy, and have a life. Being abused like that is never okay, ever.
You seem in the same problem as my friend, oh and u spelled die wrong <-- sorry Oh and it seems a little EMO, just tell ur parents that you want a little more attention in your life, i have ADHD and im ignored, almost completely, so just tell em how u feel
next time they hit you and leave a bruise call the police. i feel bad 4 u. youve had 13 years of this!! no offense but you remind me of harry potter...best wishes to you...
i was only passing by and i saw this, and well i had to say something, its hard, coz i dont know what to say. there are 10000000s of kids all over the wold though that feel just like you, i not saying it makes your any less important, its just true, and these are every day kids. humans are amazing, we each see our own lives as the most important thing there is, coz we only see our own lives. the biggest problem with haveing a member of your family that has any illness, is that you, no matter how harsh it sounds will always be second in mind, but in no god dam way, less loved. even if you have a younger sibling, just coz there younger they need more protecting, and so they are thought of first, that doesnt mean they are loved more. and as for some of the stuff that is said to you, well i dont know how honest a picture i have, but i bet you a £100 that if you had a recording of evertything that was said to you in a day, you would hear just as much nice as you do bad, and the bad sounds like a joke, but i cant say. coz we hear the bad more, it sits in our mind better, doesnt mean its more common, just means you think about it more. i really want to help more, but i cant. but take this advise, nothing no matter how bad, is worth hurting your self over. and most of all , talk to some one, a friend, family, some one who can see you face to face, not a load of ppl on the web, coz we know nothing, not really.
Dont give up people will have it sooo much worse always at least your healthy you have food to eat, water, cloths, a house. There are so many awful things out there thats ruin life. like that poor lady that gotblinded and her face deformed when she was attacked by her freinds gorrilla so tragic thats something perminate..... She was on Opra and she was so positive about moving on im proud of her. Keep this in mind you have the power to make your life better so do it. Do great in school go to college and make your life better find a perrson that you can talk to a true freind. I hope i helped i hope i helped!! =.> Dont let your fammily put you down please.
Woah, hun I'm sorry you gotta live with this. My mom brings me down alot too, but not near this bad. If I were you I'd find a really good friend and tell this to 'em. Being popluar doesn't really fix the thing, from the looks of it, your brother and you REALLY need to talk. Show somebody this, a friend you can trust good. Once they realize the issue, ask if you can book it with them, maybe then your parents will finally miss what they already lost..
whatever you do don't kill yourself. please don't. i know somewhere you really love your parents. that's probably why you haven't called child services yet. so do that. first take pictures. what i would really do though, truthfully, i would take all their money in the house get as much food and water and soap. like gallons of water. non perishing foods. but it would take months to plan. just take your time. be very very quiet. that will make you seem sneaky. when your parents are gone steel your brothers stuff, and bring clothes, and leave in your brothers car.
its probably not good advice but leave home the world is atough place but flat out cruelty will only destroy you and i think you would do well to go and see social services it sounds like you really need some help liberate yourself get a job and remember you dont have to take what they say to heart everyone is a worthwhile person you are a worthwhile person you are not a mistake or an acciedent and in the real world people will take you at face value please dont do anything silly and contact me if just want someone to talk to or some help
Realize this Hurting people hurt others. It's not you.. They are the ones who have a problem. They are sick and being mean makes them feel better. People/kids/parents do mean things or lie to manipulate. They just want the reaction so they can get high feel good from it. You have to look at the agenda and not just the words. Abuse is anything that's not uplifting so forget what truth is being used right then. They have the problem. When they or you have been thru a bad past/rejection/father gone it makes things start. So called disorders such as Bipolar, cutting, OCD, anxiety, panic attacks,hearing voices can all come from a tramautic past. It opens doors to the negative and things like addicitons, cravings also. You can talk to me or google "emotional abuse" Knowing the truth is the step to freedom from pain. Sickness can be a spiritual problem so praying to get rid of negative things of a spiritual nature is often needed after years of abuse. Turns out psychiatry is not based on science. Its just like evolutionary theory and a guess. Doctors only practice this theory on the side of being docs. There is no medical background to it at all. Psychiatrists do not draw blood to determine the presence of a biochemical imbalance in patients. They merely observe and announce the existence of imbalances. They just desire to believe this. Mental illness does not exist. Google online "Emotional Abuse" Read about bullies online. Realize its their problem. Google- Diet Depression Soda Thyroid Google-"Sinners prayer"- learn that heaven awaits you Google- "Deliverance Prayers" Click my name to talk. - God wants you to know truth Source-- Experience in a ministry- I have time.
if i were you, i would retaliate to their hate with love, to their strict commands with obedience - without questionings or murmurings. be kind to them no matter what. do the dishes, clean your room, get them a small random gift etc... they will freak out.... and you will in the end gain their love, and they will love you more than your brother. if you obey them (like no other kid in the world) they will give you everything. btw theres no point in dying. if i was there i could help you