Garie Beach

What do i do at this point in my life?

im 32 now and at times i feel worried about where my life is heading. i see a lot of my old school mates that have done well, they have kids, successful jobs, partners, successful lives etc ---- - one girl i was close to emigrated to Australia...and spends her afternoons by the beach, i saw a picture of her holding her little kid with sunglasses on. this kills me to look at them on facebook, i feel a sense of deep loss seriously. my life took a different turn completely with psychological difficulties , prison record, abuse in earlier life , not that severe , but its still abuse . misfortunes...making mistakes ....squandered away years. my ankle operated on last year because of torn ligaments . ankle still feels weak slightly. ive survived like in the song '' strange little girl '' by the stranglers , but im now 32 , have a disadvantaged record.....missed out on an average life of : relationships, being employed, getting qualifications and most other things. i feel an aching loss in my soul seeing all my old mates, seeing all the things ive missed out on. ive lived in my one bedroomed flat for 6 years, doing better with the psychological services...take medication...i live off disability...own few material possessions. ive aged premature in my face , i have a big disadvantaged history, and im wondering, panicking what im gonna do ? how will i achieve my own special ambitions ? of gaining relationships, getting a decent paid computer job ...moving to a quiet seaside village...buying my own home. it destroys me to look at all my old mates on facebook and how well they've done. Яiटκყ you are a brainless moron and know nothing.

Public Comments

1. I know people worse off than you who are older.
2. Take baby steps towards your goals. Look for a job. After that, save up money. Once you save up money you can move to a seaside village. Once you have a job and a home, think about starting a relationship.
3. Don't measure yourself against other people's lives - live your own Quit looking at Facebook if you have to.... I almost hate to say this, but quit feeling sorry for yourself and DO something positive - get some education...something. Choose a reachable goal and start taking steps to achieve it....